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Post by Derek Halliwell-Turner on Oct 12, 2007 15:36:20 GMT -5
Derek shook his head, turning his gaze away from Keira. Apparently, he was a mistake, and she would just rather him not be there at all. That fact really hurt Derek. Throughout all the years when he seemed like Keira really understood who he was, apparently he was just mistaken. She actually wished that he was never there in the first place. He felt tears well up in his eyes. And this time, he didn't even try to keep them from freely flowing down his red cheeks.
"Damn it, Keira. How could you be so selfish?" This was nothing like the Keira that he knew and loved in the future. She was so closed minded here, and not able to even accept that her mother is in love with Cole again. And if she hadn't gotten together with Cole, Natalie, Rachelle and himself would never have been born. Maybe she would have preffered it to be that way. She would have preffered her mother to be miserable the rest of her life, and to not have new half-siblings. Maybe she would have liked it better that way. Derek didn't even understand how it would put people's lives in danger either. [/color]
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Post by Natalie Halliwell-Turner on Oct 12, 2007 16:02:40 GMT -5
"Mum has always protected innocents.... Even when she was the queen of all evil she didn't let an innocent die." Keira's last comment had hurt her a lot. It was hard for her to understand - the keira she knew and loved was someone that was always there for her was a little over protective of her... but didn't Keira care about them at all? The pain was clearly shown on her face.
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Post by Keira Halliwell on Oct 12, 2007 16:15:23 GMT -5
"Natalie I don't need information on my mother. I know her just as well if not better than you do," Keira told her, not coldly but still in a sharp tone. She looked up then at the expressions on both of their faces and finally felt the guilt hit her. She looked away, unable to bear the looks on her faces. "I'm sorry," she apologised softly. "It's just not fair..." Nothing ever seemed fair. It wasn't fair she had lost Lilly, it wasn't fair her mom had lost Coop, it wasn't fair she had changed Keira's life without telling her, it wasn't fair to Natalie and Derek that they had lost Rachelle...and she wasn't being fair to them either.
"I feel like I'm losing myself and there's no one to pull me back," she said, voicing aloud what had really been bothering her. Everything else had been excuses that were so bad it was easy for no one suspect it wasn't really what was bothering her. She had tried to deny it, but as she voiced it now, it finally made it real.
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Post by Derek Halliwell-Turner on Oct 15, 2007 20:26:29 GMT -5
Derek had felt that there was something deeper than the pain that Keira had been expressing. She truly seemed thoroughly pissed about Phoebe not telling her about the three of them and about Cole, but he could tell that all that hate was not coming just from that fact. No matter how hurt she felt by not being the first one to know, she could not produce that much anger towards their mother, and the two of them just because of it. There was more pain inside of her, and she had a deeper issue. She just wasn't willing to share, and honestly with what Keira had just said to them, he didn't care too much to find out.
At the explanation of why she had so many emotions bottled up, Derek couldn't help but turn back to her. He was going to try and stay mad at her, because what she said had hurt, but after that he knew that she needed him. He reached out his arm, and placed it lightly on top of Keira's hand, looking into her eyes. "Keira, I am always here for you. All of us are," he said, motioning to Natalie and implying the rest of the family as well. "Just a call away. We are here to, as you said, 'pull you back'," he said, letting a very soft and sympathetic smile slide over his lips. [/color]
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Post by Keira Halliwell on Oct 16, 2007 14:36:28 GMT -5
Keira couldn't help but smile at her brother's words. She wondered if he was that bad at staying mad for long at her in the future as well. One fact bothered her though. "Mom isn't..." And Phoebe was the one Keira needed right now. "I get that she has a lot on her mind right now, probably even more than me, I don't know. But she's supposed to be there for me and she's failing horribly at that."
Keira missed Lilly...she and Phoebe were always the ones that had been there for her, and Lilly was gone and for all the love her mom cared to give her at the moment it was no different than if she was gone too. When her mom wasn't working, she was worrying over Cole being in the Underworld or brooding over Paige being around...didn't leave much space left for the only two daughters Phoebe had left in this time.
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Post by Natalie Halliwell-Turner on Oct 16, 2007 14:57:37 GMT -5
"Maybe if you let her be there for you she would be." Natz said glancing at her older sister. It didn't matter how pissed off at her sister she was, she would still be there for her. Same went for their mother, in the future Phoebe was really over protective of Natalie maybe a little too over protective and Natalie had annoyed her quite a bit over the years when she had nearly got herself killed but it didn't matter how annoyed Phoebe got at her, she was still there for her and everyone else. "Because no offense but you and Felicity just seem to be pushing her further and further away." Natalie knew that Keira wouldn't want to hear that but someone had to say it. Natalie knew that their mother should have told them... not right away but should have told them herself... but them pushing her away, wasn't right either.
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Post by Keira Halliwell on Oct 16, 2007 15:11:23 GMT -5
"Natalie you haven't been there...you're judging from things you hear. It's the other way around." Phoebe seemed too absorbed in her own problems to care about what Keira and Felicity thought. They had feelings too...sure her mom could feel everyone's feelings but after over twenty years she must be able to control it by now. Keira had telepathy, so she knew the feeling. It was overwhelming knowing everyone's thoughts every second of the day. "There's no way I'd push her away." Things had been fine between them until Keira had found out about...well everything. Just earlier that day she had visited Keira and Kaelyn's new apartment.
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Post by Natalie Halliwell-Turner on Oct 16, 2007 15:31:02 GMT -5
"Wouldn't push her away? Keira what do you think you've been doing to her?" She asked. "Not talking to her? avoiding her.... when ever you do talk to her you treat her like a complete stranger!" She snapped. "It doesn't matter what Mom has done or what ever she said or didn't say she doesn't deserve what you and Felicity have put her though." Natalie could have a nasty temper and just as stubborn, if not worse than Aunt Piper. "If you actually talked to her you would realize that she's struggling to cope with her empath power and feeling everyone else's emotions as well as her own is killing her!" Felicity was never at home, Paige was always at magic school - trying to be there but wasn't doing a good job. "Do you even know how this is effecting mom? or what she's thinking?"
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Post by Keira Halliwell on Oct 16, 2007 15:39:04 GMT -5
"Natalie I told you stop talking about my mom as if I don't know her!" Keira replied snappily. It was funny how she could change from angry, to sad and then back to angry in such little time. People who weren't accustomed to her often didn't like it at all. "It's not killing her- she should just stop thinking about herself for once!" If Derek was smart, he'd probably stay out of this sister fight. Then again it was in the blood of Halliwells to interfere when they shouldn't, maybe he was the same.
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Post by Natalie Halliwell-Turner on Oct 16, 2007 15:57:57 GMT -5
"And I don't like been told what to do...." She would only really ever listen to her mother, father or her aunts if she was told to do something. "Keira will you stop for one minute, about thinking of yourself and about how your feeling. You have no idea how mom's feeling or how my dad is feeling... or even how you have made me and Derek feel." Natalie could hold a grudge when she wanted to. "You made me feel this big." She said showing her finger and her thumb almost touching. "Why can't you give dad a chance.... he's a great guy, sure made his mistakes but so has even one else. No one's perfect Keira.... not even you. If you carry on like this then your going to lose more than a mother.... your going to lose everyone and end up been a bitter old lady!" She said before shimmering out. She could have carried on arguing but if Natalie lost her temper too much then her pyrokinesis went out of control.
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Post by Keira Halliwell on Oct 16, 2007 16:10:17 GMT -5
"I'm not thinking about myself you're turning my point against me! Name one thing she has ever done that wasn't for herself recently!" She yelled after Natalie. "Damn it..." she said when Natalie shimmered out. She knew better than anyone, except maybe her mom, how everyone felt. Emotions gave more in depth but thoughts...you really got inside their heads.
Natalie had no right to tell her any of those things. "She doesn't even know me or mom in this time...like Felicity said, mom is the one thats going to lose everything," she said quietly, more to herself although Derek was still there. "So why the hell should she act like she does?" she asked, her voice raising as she turned towards Derek this time. It wasn't his fault, or his question to answer...she just needed to get it out of her. She'd learned a long time ago bottle up emotions was the worse thing you could do.
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Post by Derek Halliwell-Turner on Oct 21, 2007 18:42:36 GMT -5
It broke Derek's heart to watch his sisters feud like this in front of him. But he wasn't an idiot, he knew that he should not interfere until they got a little further along. He knew that they needed to talk to each other like this. Keira had these feelings about their mother, and she needed to get them out, while Natalie felt that she needed to be heard too. Derek stood watching, shaking his head in disbelief. He had never heard the two of them talking to each other like this, and it was so hard to watch, but he knew that he needed to let them battle it out.
The things that Keira was saying about their mother was still harsh though. As Natalie shimmered out, Derek let out a low sigh. Now Keira was going to go back to taking out her newly re-instated anger on him. As she asked him the question, Derek just shook his head, not in response to the question, but just about everything that had just happened. "How could you say that mom hasn't done anything for anyone but herself lately? She has never backed down from her duties as a Charmed One. Do you know how many people she helps each and every day. Sure she can get distracted by her personal life. But she always gives up so much of her life for everyone else. Sometimes she just needs a little time for herself." [/color]
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Post by Keira Halliwell on Oct 22, 2007 14:51:10 GMT -5
Derek's pain at seeing Keira and Natalie exchanging such harsh words reached her through his thoughts, and she finally noticed them when Natalie was gone. Before she had been clouded with her's and Natalie's as they had been stronger at the moment. Derek's had been more like a whisper in the background. As that dawned on her she realised it was the first step of her not going mad with the power. Maybe, in a few years when she could control it better and when it had developed she would be able to block out thoughts.
Unlike Kaelyn and everyone else she had discussed powers with to know what they did, Keira didn't try to develop her powers herself. She let them develop themselves as she used them. She figured out what emotions triggered them and worked from there. Wind Manipulation was definitely anger. Telepathy was different. It didn't need to be triggered, it was just there. And it was why she knew what Derek was going to say before he said it, although as she hadn't calmed down yet it felt as if it was busy. As if she had just been inserted into a beehive.
"Derek please...not you too," she pleaded, closing her eyes and trying to calm her refreshed anger. When she trusted herself to speak again she opened her eyes. "You don't get it...innocents are dying more often now, and that's not her fault, I know." Something new and horribly powerful was developing and Keira hated just thinking about that. From her telepathy she had gathered it was how Cole was back. "If what you're saying is true, name one specific thing she had done recently that hasn't been for herself."
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Post by Derek Halliwell-Turner on Oct 27, 2007 18:10:17 GMT -5
Derek could tell that Keira's feelings weren't changing too much on the subject yet. But at least she had stopped argueing about every single thing that he said. He knew that she still had these feelings that her mother hadn't been doing a great job of being a mother or a Charmed One lately, and he was still going to try and change her mind. Their mother was one of the greatest people that he had ever met, and even if he didn't necessarily get along with her all the time, he knew how many people she helped, and what a great person she was.
"You know that I am not home enough to name specific examples, Keira," he said, sighing. He thought that maybe he was getting to her, but now not being able to answer her question would make things a little more complicated. It wasn't going to be easy to convince Keira if he couldn't even give her an example of his mother doing good. But the only reason that he couldn't was because he doesn't live at the manor, he doesn't even go there more than once a month except for special occassions. [/color]
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Post by Keira Halliwell on Oct 28, 2007 9:27:03 GMT -5
Keira heard his thoughts, and he was right. "Darn right I'm not going to change my mind..." she muttered so quietly she doubted he heard her, but as he was standing near to her it was possible he heard. Sure, she was a great person. Keira didn't disagree in the least. She just didn't think her mom was doing such a hot job with it at the moment, and recently Keira focused more on the present that the past.
Keira shook her head. "You've been here for a good while now," she said without thinking, but then studied his reply more carefully. Maybe he was refering to not being around the manor. His next thoughts confirmed that. She sighed. Maybe she was overreacting. If there was anyone who should be disappointed at Phoebe's parenting it should be Derek. Derek, who she quickly realised was more of the outcast.
From little things she could tell that Phoebe probably showed more love to Natalie, even if she didn't mean to. Maybe because she wasn't accustomed to having a son...who knew why, but the point was Keira hated the most obvious thing she could see in her little (Well at the moment older) brother. She barely knew him but one thing stood out; he was in a shadow. Probably Natalie's, she wasn't sure, but she didn't like it. "I'm sorry..." she said softly. She should have thought before she spoke.
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