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[Paige Matthews]

She normally would've asked one of her sisters for advice but lately she felt completely different around them for some strange reason. She had wanted to be able to spend as much time as she could trying to regain what was left of her life. She couldn't handle hardly anything anymore and lately she kept feeling like she wasn't worth it anymore. That she was better off dead. That's why she sought help from her brother-in-law instead of one of her sisters because she was sure they'd freak out. "Leo!" She called as she waited for him on top of the Golden Gate Bridge. She had been there all morning.

[Leo Wyatt]

Leo had just finished fixing the pipes in the kitchen, when he heard Paige calling. He cleaned up his tools and put o a clean shirt and jeans. Then he sensed where Paige was. A swarm of blue and white orbs appeared, disappearing and leaving Leo standing on top of the Golden Gate Bridge. He looked around, spotting Paige and walking over to her. "Paige? What's up?" he asked, a little concerned. She didn't usually call on him. Yes he was her Whitelighter, but still. He was usually called when the sisters needed him.

[Paige Matthews]

"Hi." She said to her brother in law and then thought a moment before speaking. She didn't know really how to explain what's up in a way where he'd understand and yet not freak out. "Where do I even begin Leo? I mean, Piper and Phoebe are both mad at me because I haven't been myself lately, and I don't want to hurt them but at the same time I can't help them if I can't even help myself first." She sighed, trying to figure out the best way to explain the situation, though it wasn't easy. "Earlier Piper and I got into an arguement, and it wasn't pretty...thought I should warn you. She's really mad at me, and I can't really blame her..." She said as she looked at her brother-in-law. "I really don't want to put you in the middle of this. Though I really didn't want to fight with Piper but she just wouldn't listen. I know that both her and Phoebe need my help but how can I do that, when I can't even help myself? The other morning, I couldn't even get out of bed let alone do anything else. I know I'm going through something, and I haven't been myself since what happened with both Henry and Linda and Lilly. I'm doing the best I can. Lately I've been thinking about alot of things, and if it hadn't been for Kyle, I probably would've done at least some of them already. I can't deal with anything anymore, I mean my every day normal life is hard enough, and then when you add all the evil that we fight daily, it's just more than I can handle at the moment and I know Phoebe is going through the same thing. I know I haven't been around lately and like I told Piper it has nothing to do with her or with Phoebe for that matter, it's just being alone is how I handle things after someone I care about gets killed. I did the same thing when Henry died. I know it's not healthy but what can I do about that? Everytime I've tried to explain to Piper or to Phoebe what I'm feeling at the moment they both tell me that they're upset and expect me to listen to them yet I can't say what I'm feeling, how is that right?"

[Leo Wyatt]

Leo stood there with his arms folded as he listened to her talk about her problems. He knew there was a reason she had called him here, and he had just heard it. He tried to think of what to say, not wanting to say the wrong thing. He never heard Paige speak this much before, let alone to him. As she finished, he gave a sigh and looked at her, seeing the frustration and sadness. "It's not right Paige. You know how Piper deals with things when she's under a lot of stress, and you know what kind of state Phoebe is in. But you're right, they should listen to you too" he said as he walked over to her. "All they need is a little bit of time...well you might have to give Phoebe a few months" he said with a smile.

He looked at her and continued speaking. "I may be your Whitelighter and an Angel" he said as he paused then continued, "But I will always listen when you need someone to talk to, just like to Phoebe and Piper. I do give advice you know" he said with a small, but warm smile. But his tone changed to a little more serious one as he spoke, "I know you took it hard when Henry died, you had every right. Sometimes it takes people a little longer to heal than others, if they heal at all. And then when Lilly and Linda died, you bottled al of your emotions up. So now those emotions are coming out. You know Phoebe and Piper may brush it off like they don't care and go on about something else, but they really do care. You are their blood, their family. Don't worry about them right now. 'Things will get worse before they get better" he said as he gave her another smile. "Everything happens for a reason" he said as he looked out over the sky and then down at the cars. This was one of his favorite places to to think and relax.

[Paige Matthews]

"I know, and believe me, both Piper and Phoebe are going through just as much if not more than I am...and I'm not trying to say that they aren't going through the same things as I am...I just sometimes take a little longer to deal with things than they do, and I know Phoebe's dealing with it, I mean her daughter too, was killed during the same time that Linda was, by the same demon and on top of everything else. You know, with Cole back and everything, even though I'm pretty sure he knows I haven't changed what I thought about him. I know Phoebe's pregnant too, so she's kind of been a little over-stressed lately." She said as she took a little breath and then smiled a warm smile towards him as she then continued speaking. She had thought of killing herself before she asked Leo for advice. She just hadn't figured out a way to do it.

"I just....Henry was always so easy to talk to and he understood that I enjoyed going to Magic School...and right after he died, it seemed to be the only place that really gave me peace. I know that doesn't really make alot of sense to you guys, but....you know being there, it's like I can feel his presence there...more than I can at the house. Don't ask me to explain it, because I don't think I can. I know, Leo, but you're not just a whitelighter or an angel you're family...and sometimes it's a bit hard to explain things like this to your own family even when they're going through the same thing. How can I brush it off, Leo? I mean I know they both need me, and I'm trying to be there...it's just I feel like nothing I do is right at the moment. I can't even imagine what it would've been like for Phoebe or Piper to lose you or well Cole now, the way that I lost Henry. You and I both know how Piper and Phoebe both reacted when Prue died. I guess we all deal with death a different way, sometimes it takes us longer, and sometimes it is well rather quick. I just I don't want to be a burden to the two of them you know, I mean they've known eachother longer than I've known either one of them. You know they'll be alright as long as they've got eachother, but I know for a fact if either one of them....got killed, I don't know what I'd do. I mean we've all been through so much when it comes to death that I just I don't think I could handle anymore, you know?"