Spending some time with my sister-tag Phoebe/Piper

[Paige Matthews]

She hadn't seen Phoebe or Piper recently. She spent most of her time, because she had been too busy at Magic School to really notice alot of things, like the fact she hadn't been home alot to help her sisters out. She knew that Phoebe was probably very angry with her to say the least, but she had anticipated that, to say the least. She knew Cole hadn't been back in a while and she had some time off, so she wanted to see her older sister, knowing she probably would get killed, especially since the baby, if it had been like the time Phoebe was pregnant the first time around with the unborn son of the Source and Cole...it would only get worse before it got better. Still she wanted to try and at least talk to her. She knocked on Phoebe's bedroom door, not knowing what to really expect. She was going to at least try to talk to Phoebe and then probably try and talk to Piper. She hadn't wanted to hurt either one of her sisters.

[Phoebe Halliwell]

Phoebe was under strict orders from Piper to rest. She was still really worried about Cole been down in the underworld but she always would be worried about him down there, she would however force herself to rest for the sake of her baby, She would do anything to make sure her baby was ok and if that meant she had to rest and be under no stress then that was what she would do.

She got up off her bed when she heard a knock on her door. "How do you expect me to rest if everyone keeps knock..." She shut up when she saw it was Paige. She didn't want to talk to Paige right now, she was mad at her. No mad was an understatement... she was furious. Phoebe was always there for Paige no matter what and the one time Phoebe needed her sister she wasn't. Paige spent half her life at magic school and when she had come back home it had been to yell at her about been back with Cole. "Realized you have sisters and a family that needs you?" She asked, more coldly than what she had meant. What she had the right to be mad she was pregnant and her hormones were all over the place.

[Paige Matthews]

She waited until Phoebe quit yelling at her, before she spoke. "I knew you were going to yell, but then again I deserve that...if not more. Look, I realize that I haven't been there for you and Piper the way I should've been or for that matter any member of the family...and I was just...well going through something I just hadn't...been able to face anything or anyone...so I ended up pushing the people I should've kept close away from me because I couldn't handle it, because I knew I would break down if I did....but...I don't expect you or Piper to trust me anymore than I expect my own kids to feel that way. I've done alot of damage that I know can't be reversed." She said rather simply, though she knew that Phoebe could have yelled all night if she had wanted to.

[Piper Halliwell]

Piper had baked more cookies for Phoebe. She didn't know what it was but this baby give Phoebe a continuous craving for it. If things went all like that she would probably make Piper give her that for all three meals of the day. She knocked on Phoebe's door before opening it, the cookies nicely arranged on a plate for her sister. "Pheebes I made you some-" she stopped though, seeing who was in her room. "Am I dreaming?"

[Paige Matthews]

She heard her older sister's voice. "No, Piper, you're not." She said rather softly as she looked at her oldest sister, she did love both of her sisters, but she had realized for a reason that she had constantly screwed up her life, and that had affected what happened to her sisters. She knew that both Phoebe and Piper were angry at her, but that would pass it usually did. After all sisters fight, she knew that well enough, she knew that eventually everything would calm down. "I know you didn't expect to see me, Piper, and I know that you and Phoebe both didn't...but I am here, and I'm not going away until we talk."

[Phoebe Halliwell]

"Paige you weren't the only one that was going though something that you couldn't handle!" she snapped. Poor paige always seemed to be on the receiving end of Phoebe's rages when she was pregnant. "You think your emotions alone were hard to deal with, try dealing with everyone else's as well as your own!"

"Not going go until we talk?... then your going to be here for a while because i don't want to talk." She was still mad at Paige for practically abandoning them. Phoebe had needed her sisters the most and she wasn't there for her. Paige had no idea what she had been going though... Paige hadn't even answered her calls.

[Piper Halliwell]

Piper guessed that Paige hadn't realised she was mocking her with the dreaming comment. Piper was still angry at Paige, but she had vented out everything that day at Magic School and she knew Phoebe needed to do the same. She wondered if Paige would get it worse from Phoebe...Paige always seemed to fall victim to Phoebe's rages when she was pregnant. Walking straight past Paige she sat down on an end of the bed, and rested the plate of cookies on Phoebe's bed side table.

[Paige Matthews]

She got away from Phoebe and Piper, and stood up and walked to the other side of the room. "Fine, if you don't want to talk, then just listen. Okay, I get that you both are beyond pissed, and I didn't expect anything besides that. I deserve what I'm getting, and I realize that. I don't know what it's like for you, Phoebe, being pregnant and having to deal with not only your emotions but that of other people's too, and with Cole being gone, as much as he is...it doesn't help. I may not have been around very often and I am sorry for that, but...that doesn't mean that I don't know anything."

"I know more than you think. I know I should've come when you both called, I mean before now, and I understand that if you guys don't want to deal with me anymore, that I at least deserve that if not more. I've been a very bad sister, not listening to you two, and not being there for either one of you." She said loud enough so that both of her sisters could hear her, but yet, not loud enough so that if other people were in the house, they couldn't hear her.

She didn't realize, until that day in Magic School with Piper, that she had realized how bad of a person she had been, that she hadn't even realized what she had been doing, not only to her sisters, but to her kids as well."I did expect your reaction to be just like this, except probably a lot worse, I shouldn't have done what I did to you and Piper, that's bad enough, but for what I did to my own kids, that's to me, unbelievable. I didn't ever even realize what I was doing, how it affected people until the other day, when Piper came to Magic school and she yelled at me, just like you're doing now, Phoebe."

"It was then that I realized, just as much as....always, that I had screwed up, beyond repair, and I don't expect anyone to forgive me for what I did, because I know I've done damage that is pretty much beyond repair, so I won't be surprised if either you or Piper hated me for what I did, because I deserve that, just like I know my kids despise me, and I can sense that. I may not be an empath Phoebe, but I can sense things from people, just like I can sense the fact you're beyond angry with me, that you don't even want me here...that really neither one of you do right now, I can feel it."

[Phoebe Halliwell]

"If you know that you should have come when we called you, why didn't you?.... Paige you pretty much abandoned us! Do you have any idea how Kaelyn felt? or Henry and Melody?" Feeing their emotions had been killing phoebe. Both her and Piper had been Kaelyn's shoulders to cry on. "Don't you use your emotions to make me feel guilty because that is not fair!" She knew paige couldn't help it but Phoebe didn't want to feel guilty she wanted to get some of her rage out. Being an empath serious sucked sometimes. "I don't hate you... mad at you yes but i don't hate you."

[Paige Matthews]

She was tempted to leave but decided against it. "I couldn't that's why. Our emotions are tied to our powers, so obviously even my orbing has gotten a bit off, besides, I was...dealing with the same things that you were Phoebe, besides, I'm not the only sister who could come you guys could've come to see me anytime, but you didn't. Okay, I know I did alot of things that aren't right, Phoebe, but I did the best I could...you of all people should understand what I'm going through here. I understand why, Phoebe. I'm not trying to say that I didn't screw up because I know that I did. I know I screwed up, I'm a lousy mother and sister, alright I get that. But do you have any idea how hard it is sometimes, I mean even getting up in the morning, it's just about...there have been days where all I wanted to do was die, that's why I went to Magic School and stayed there as much as I did, because it was the one place where I could relax and somewhat get back to normal. I know it's been twenty years since Henry died, and five since our daughters have died, Phoebe, but it is still hard to deal with. I wasn't trying to be a bad sister or anything but I can't just erase the past anymore than either one of you two can. Phoebe, I am not trying to force my emotions on you, or Piper either, because we all deal with things differently. You guys deal with it one way, and I deal with it another. It's just how I've always done things. Kaelyn, Melody and Henry, I can't blame them for not wanting me in their lives with how I've treated them anymore than I expect you or Piper to still want me in your lives either. I did do alot of damage, damage that can't be reversed." She was a bit too stubborn for her own good, and she wasn't going to leave until they talked this out. It was that simple. She knew that both Phoebe and Piper were mad at her, and that was somewhat understandable but some of the stuff that was going on was just not good at all.

[Piper Halliwell]

Piper stayed silent when Phoebe asked Paige if she knew how Kaelyn and Henry had felt. Piper couldn't support Phoebe there because she knew Keira and Felicity had also been suffering because of Phoebe, especially Keira. Piper had some things to say to Paige though. "You were not dealing with the same things because we didn't abandon you like you did us. You are not pregnant and you didn't have your youngest sister against the person you love. You did not have to be the strong one all the time. I did. Melody didn't come to you with her problems, she came to me. You ran away to your precious Magic School," she said angrily.

"You didn't do the best you could- we both know that." She shook her head when Paige said that she wasn't trying to force her emotions on them, but she was. Piper knew what Paige was doing- she had done it to Prue so many times when she was little. Paige was trying the guilt trip. She was feeling sorry for herself. Piper felt sorry for her youngest sister, she wanted to support her like she did with Phoebe but how could she when Paige had pushed them further and further away? Piper had gotten fed up of it- even past her pity and pain.

"Paige I got over my big sister dying...the sister that had been there for me since the day I was born, and raised Phoebe and I since mom died alongside grams." Prue was still a touchy subject with Piper so you knew when she was talking about Prue she wasn't in her normal mood. "So don't even try to escape from us being angry at you or we'll just bottle it up and that will make things worse. Stop trying to make us pity you!" Piper hated saying it but Paige needed to hear it and despite what she was thinking and her hormones, she doubted Phoebe would've told her. Phoebe might have...but she doubted it.

[Paige Matthews]

"Okay you know what Piper, I deserve that. I realize I haven't been there, but damn it what can I do about that now, it's already happened hasn't it? I've done alot of things that I regret, but you know what being in Magic School, was the only normal thing I had left...I mean did it ever occur to you why I was there as much as I was? It wasn't because I was trying to avoid you or Phoebe, it was because of the fact teaching is the thing I love most in the world, other than my family, and it gave me joy, it gave me a reason to get up in the morning. You know what, why did I come here, to get picked on? Look, I know you both are angry and you have every right to be, but you know as well as I do that I never did anything to either one of you, we all deal with things differently, we're not the same person. I know, Piper, how you dealt with it when Prue died, okay? I know how it affected you, I was right there, you tried to kill me when you turned into a fury remember? I'm not saying that this is the same thing, because it isn't. I'm not trying to turn you guys against eachother or anything like that. All I wanted was my life back that's why I came...but apparently all you guys seem to want to do is bitch at me, so what's the point? I'm not trying to make you pity me, Piper, I have enough of my own to deal with and I certainly don't need you guys being mad at me but because you are, there's not a thing I can do about it, so I just will deal with it. I'm not trying to make you guys feel anything, because I know you're both way too mad at me to think rationally at the moment." She said rather simply, she knew it was true.

[Phoebe Halliwell]

"A reason to get up in the morning? Paige what about your family? What about saving innocents... Been a charmed one.... Because Paige you didn't just abandon us. You abandoned the innocents that we could have saved but didn't because we didn't have the power of three." She sighed. "Paige we don't want to bitch at you, we want you to see it from our point of view. You have barely spoken to us for 5 years and as soon as you did come back the first thing you do is yell at me for getting back together with Cole!" She snapped "And this is not good for my stress levels!" She said before sitting down on her bed, she was getting a headache.

[Piper Halliwell]

"And your charges? You've been at magic school so much I don't doubt that you abandoned them to," Piper added, which was a heartless thing to do. She knew well that a whitelighter heard voices of their charges in their head constantly. "You're our sister, we're not supposed to be arguing like this but abandoning your family and innocents in their time of need...worse thing you could do as a a sister, a whitelighter and a mother."