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Post by Natalie Halliwell-Turner on Oct 28, 2007 16:14:05 GMT -5
Usually Natalie was a nice person, but she did also have a nasty temper. Usually she didn't act like she was acting now but she could get snappy... expessically when it was on her birthday. Her temper just seemed to be alot shorter than normal and she would just snap at the slightest thing. It hadn't effected her that much when she was younger but as she was getting older her temper on her birthday just seemed to get worse.
Maybe she was being selfish, but wasn't one memory of her sister better than nothing? It wasn't the best memory in the world but he remembered her, If anyone hadn't have told Natalie about Rachelle then she wouldn't have even known that she had an older sister. Keira and Felicity was her half sisters but they were hardly at the manor. All her cousins had moved out, and the manor was a big place.
She did feel a slight tinge of guilt when she saw that her older brother had gotten upset, but she shouldn't feel guilty, She didn't move out of the manor... she hadn't walked out on her family to go on a wild goose chase. Yes she wanted to find Rachel too but spending half your life in the underworld vanquishing every demon that didn't talk or didn't know anything about rachel wasn't getting him anywhere. "Least you knew her. Oh come on derek we all know that you think its my fault that she was taken.... If I wasn't such a spoilt brat, always demanding people's attention then mum or dad would have been able to do something about it right?" So those hadn't been Derek's exact words but she knew that Derek thought that she was an attention seeking overprotected spoilt little brat.
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Post by Derek Halliwell-Turner on Oct 28, 2007 17:45:52 GMT -5
This was getting ridiculous. Natalie had no idea what she was talking about. She seemed to be talking herself into seriously believing that Derek's memory was a good thing. He could not even understand how she could think that though. How on earth could anyone think that only remembering your sister's kidnapping was a good thing? It was nothing of the sort. It was such a huge burden on his life. He was the only one that had seen it. He was the only one there. The only one that could properly tell how it happened. The only one that had to feel the pain of real fault. Sure, maybe everyone thought that it was their fault, but who's fault could it be except Derek's? He was the only one there with the opportunity to save her. It had to be his fault that she wasn't there anymore.
Looking up to Natalie, Derek's eyes strongly showed the anger that he was feeling. "How would I think it was your fault? You were too young to have any damn part in it," he said, shaking his head gradually back to looking at the ground. He had never actually admitted feeling fault for her kidnapping before, but he felt that now he should. "It is no one's fault but mine. Why else do you think I am taking it harder than anyone else? I was the only one there, the only one that had the chance to save her, and I failed. I failed my sister. It is my fault that she is gone. And I will not stop until I right my wrong." [/color]
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Post by Keira Halliwell on Oct 29, 2007 15:27:07 GMT -5
"Derek!" said Keira. She knew exactly what Derek was feeling. In a way it had been her fault Lilly and Linda had died. She had known exactly where they were, while everyone was worried sick. The reason she hadn't told anyone was because she was convinced they were alright, as they had been out late on many occasions in the Underworld and they could take care of themselves. Only when Zankou's demon came and told them she realised how mistaken she had been. Her mistake had caused their deaths or someone would've been able to do something.
"You were five years old, how could you blame yourself for that?" Keira snapped, finally losing her temper. It always got to her when people blamed themselves for something, because she hated seeing them in pain. "Everyone else -excluding Natalie- should have been there," she said bitterly. They had stopped being over protective of Rachelle when she proved she could take care of herself form a young age but that had been their big mistake. "Not you. It's out fault for overestimating her... if we hadn't forgotten that she was only five years old, and someone had been there everything would've been okay."
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Post by Derek Halliwell-Turner on Oct 29, 2007 23:13:05 GMT -5
Derek continued to shake his head, feeling the tears that had never left his eyes ache to get out. But he did his best to hold them back, he couldn't let anymore fall, he was not that weak. Derek had thought that Keira or Natalie may not like the fact that Derek was blaming himself for Rachelle's kidnapping, but he couldn't help it. It was his fault, and he knew that. That is why he had always been so dedicated to finding her. Because it was his fault that she was gone, and so it was his job to get her back.
"But it is my fault! I had been vanquishing demons since I was born! Why would that one have been any different? It shouldn't have been. But it just wouldn't vanquish, and so it is my fault that she is gone. Because I was too powerless to defeat the demon. I wasn't strong enough to save my own sister," he said. It was now taking basically all the strength that he had to hold back the tears that wanted to burst from his eyes. He didn't cry very often, but when it was about to happen, it was extremely hard for him to stop. [/color]
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Post by Natalie Halliwell-Turner on Oct 30, 2007 13:54:53 GMT -5
"Won't stop until you right your wrong?..... Even if it means losing your family in the process? It wasn't even your fault it just happened! No one could have predicted that it would happen." Even their mother didn't get a premonition about it. "I needed you, and you weren't there!" She said simply, folding her arms. "You never are." She said before walking out of the attic, She had enough disappointment in her life she didn't need any more. She went to go find her aunt Piper.
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Post by Keira Halliwell on Oct 30, 2007 15:11:28 GMT -5
Derek's thoughts didn't help. When Keira wasn't in control of her emotions she wasn't in control of her powers so she couldn't block out anyone, and his thoughts only made her more agitated. She sighed. Rachelle and Derek had been vanquishing Demons from very young- they were the only two of Phoebe's kids to do that. Keira couldn't because she hadn't had active powers at that age. "You just said it yourself. It wouldn't vanquish. Not your fault. You're not more powerful than every single demon...especially at that age," she reminded him.
Keira grimaced at Natalie's words. Natalie had felt abandoned by all of her older siblings. Especially Derek because he was often in the Underworld. She knew who Natalie was going to look for...Piper. It was always Piper she went to when she was upset with everyone else, Keira wasn't sure why. Melody had the same habit. "You shouldn't be doing this to yourself...you have one life and you should make the most of it."
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Post by Derek Halliwell-Turner on Oct 30, 2007 22:06:03 GMT -5
Shaking his head, Derek felt his knees begin to feel weak underneath him. His baby sister had just walked out on him. Sure, they never hardly talked. They never actually even got along, but that didn't mean that he didn't love her. She was still his little sister, and he still loved her so much, even if he was mad at her most of the time for always taking the spotlight. It may not have been completely her fault, but she just seemed like the easy one to blame for it. She was the one always in the light, why not blame her for Derek being the one left in the darkness. He always had been.
"I should have tried harder. I should've been able to do it," he said, feeling his knees get weaker and weaker. It wouldn't be too long before he wasn't sure if they cold hold him up any longer. But he knew that if he tried to walk, they would just give out even sooner, and so he just needed to stay right there. "How can I make the most out of life if it is one without my twin sister that I am positive is still out there somewhere?" He said, dropping his gaze to the ground, wondering how long his knees would hold out. [/color]
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