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Post by Keira Halliwell on Sept 28, 2007 15:36:46 GMT -5
(Keira was there before Leo. Oh Rachy don't remind me of food poisoning!))
Keira looked around at Leo and gave him a half smile at his attempt to lighten the mood. "Not much really...things are going pretty normal for a change," she said. She smirked when her mom said that Piper wouldn't let her in the kitchen. "And with good reason..." she muttered, although as her mother was directly beside her she would've heard anyway.
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Post by Natalie Halliwell-Turner on Sept 29, 2007 13:59:09 GMT -5
Natalie smirked at what Keira said, though she did have a point. Phoebe couldn't cook at all... she often over cooked or under cooked something. Or in most cases she just forgot about what she was meant to be cooking, their mother was good at making potions though.... not as good as Aunt Piper but still good. Natalie pushed some of her long dark brown hair back. She knew that everyone was trying to make her birthday somewhat enjoyable but as far as Natalie was concerned she didn't have anything to celebrate. Her birthday just marked another year that Rachel wasn't there.
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Post by Derek Halliwell-Turner on Oct 9, 2007 21:23:00 GMT -5
[[And Derek didn't walk in, lol. And thanks for responding to Derek, Natalie. Geesh, haha j/k.]]
Derek nodded to Keira. She was one of the only people that understood him. Sure, Natalie was there for him most of the time. But she still questioned his decision to leave the manor, and tried to convince him that it was wrong and to come back. But Keira on the other hand, she seemed to completely understand Derek. Maybe she was going through the same stage as him... he wasn't quite sure. Whatever the reason, he was very thankful that Keira accepted his decisions, and remained there for him.
At his uncle's sad attempt at bringing some happiness into the conversation, Derek couldn't help but roll his eyes. Over the years he had grown very distant from his Uncle Leo, and even learned to dislike him sometimes. He was always trying to help, and Derek knew that, but the way that he always had to get right in the middle of everyone else's business is what bothered him so much. And at the fact that he turned the conversation around, Derek was speechless. He was not sorry at all for what he had said, and wish that his mother had had a chance to respond to it. Staying completely silent, Derek walked over, and sat down on a trunk against the wall, resting his head in his hands, closing his eyes. [/color]
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Post by Keira Halliwell on Oct 11, 2007 8:43:45 GMT -5
Keira looked around at everyone in the room and realised something, and she didn't like it. She felt as if they were...divided. She couldn't explain it, not even to herself, but it was how she felt and she hated it. Seeing Derek stay silent and secluded, she went over to him. Not wanting to be taller than him when they were talking, she sat down on a nearby chair. Well he was taller than her but not when he was sitting of-course. "Derek..." she said sadly.
She knew what he was going through, partly because of his thoughts and partly because she had been in that situation when she was younger. The want to get away from the Manor, and from the family- she leave everything behind. And she had. What she hadn't done was ruin her relationship with her family. "Why are you doing this to yourself?" she asked him, quietly so only he would hear.
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Post by Derek Halliwell-Turner on Oct 11, 2007 13:55:28 GMT -5
Derek was partly just wishing that everyone would go down to the kitchen like Leo had suggested. But on the other hand, he kind of wished that they wouldn't because then he would just be away from them again. He hadn't come there that day to reunite with his family. He came to say happy birthday to his baby sister. Not even his mother. She just didn't understand him, and he didn't want to deal with her, especially not on this day. But it seemed that it was already taking affect, they were already just forgetting about him and leaving to go have some birthday cake. Without even responding to him, like he didn't matter at all. That's how it had always been.
Derek was somewhat surprised when Keira came over to him though. Out of everyone else, she had been the one that understood him the most, and surprisingly he hadn't grown that close to her. Sure, he was closer to her than a lot of his other cousins and family members, but seeing how she was the only one that didn't hate him because of his decision to leave, you would have thought that they would have been super close. But moving away from everyone had pretty much drawn Derek away from everyone and everything at the manor and related to it.
As Keira asked the question he had hoped she wouldn't, he let out his famous sigh, and felt tears begin to well in his eyes. He wouldn't let them escape though, he couldn't. Showing emotion like this was too much of a weakness to let happen. He wouldn't let it happen. Blinking several times to get the water out of his eyes, he stared straight at Keira. "I have no choice," he said, dropping his gaze. No one else seemed to be searching too hard for her. They were just waiting for her to pop into the manor one day and then just be back. And Derek was smart enough to know that that wasn't going to happen. [/color]
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Post by Keira Halliwell on Oct 11, 2007 16:30:33 GMT -5
If Keira had felt like smiling, she would have smiled as Derek let out that sigh of his, the one that had stopped Cole from literally forcing him to move back into the Manor. He'd had that sigh since he was old enough to do it. She'd been the only one to notice it in the last few months before he moved out though...she suspected that was one of the reasons he had moved out. Maybe he had felt withdrawn. Whatever it was she'd never know, because she had learned to close her mind off certain people if she wished and she had refused to let herself hear his thoughts at the time he had made that decision- they were his, and she had no right to hear them.
She took a few moments to understand what he meant by he had no choice, and even then she wasn't sure she had completely understood his meaning in the words. If there was one thing she admired about her brother it was that he could say more about himself in a few words than she could in a few paragraphs. "Yes you do..." she told him. "We couldn't just dedicate our lives to finding her Derek."
It was strange to those who weren't accustomed to Keira, when she would change the topic suddenly to what they were thinking. Sometimes it would annoy the hell out of those who knew why she did that, but Derek should be accustomed to it by now. She had played around with him when he was younger over it.
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Post by Derek Halliwell-Turner on Oct 12, 2007 0:26:01 GMT -5
Derek kept his gaze piercing towards the ground as Keira conjured up her words to say. And as she let out her words, Derek's head automatically began shaking. She was wrong, she just didn't understand what was going through him. For once, she hadn't been reading his mind, and so she didn't know what he was thinking, she didn't even understand. Although she was the closest to understanding that he had. No one else even came close, and so he wouldn't just blow up at her and claim that she didn't know because she was the most accepting of his decision out of anyone.
Derek sighed once more. Sighing like he did had become such a big part of his life that he didn't even realize how often he did it anymore. "No, I get that you guys couldn't. That's why I had to. I had nothing better going for me. My sister is the most important thing in my life, she was my everything. And without her, I have nothing," he said, welling up slightly. But once again, he had to control his tears. He would not let them out. He had to have more self-control than that. He knew that he did. [/color]
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Post by Keira Halliwell on Oct 12, 2007 14:22:06 GMT -5
Keira couldn't help but feel a bit of frustration at his words. Even Natalie, who had looked up to Rachelle didn't dedicate her entire life looking for her to the point where she drew herself away from her family. She shook her head. "Derek, that's not true." Keira too had lost not just two of her little sisters but her father as well, and her cousin, and her uncle. Derek hadn't been alive born yet except for with Rachelle.
"Rachelle wasn't your only family, how could you have nothing left? She's gone...you just have to accept it and move on." She felt like a hypocrite though. Keira herself had taken a long time before she had gotten over Lilly's death.
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Post by Derek Halliwell-Turner on Oct 12, 2007 15:24:30 GMT -5
Derek knew that this family had lost so much over the years. Their entire lives had always been dedicated to the greater good, fighting evil since the day that they got their powers, that is how it had always been. They had all had to sacrifice so much, and he knew that. They all lost so much, Prue, Lilly, Linda, Coop, and so many others. So Derek taking it this seriously for Rachelle seemed strange to most of them. But did they remember Piper when Leo was taken? Her entire life consisted of nothing but finding Leo. That was one of the facts that helped Christy persuade Billy into turning against the sisters. Rachelle was not killed in front of them; they had no evidence saying that she was dead. Derek would not stop until he found out what happened to her.
But what Keira said next affected Derek in a completely different way. He felt his temper flare higher than it had gone in a long time, and he shot to his feet, eyes glaring down towards her. "How could you say that? She is not gone! She is not dead! I will not give up like the rest of you did!" He screamed at her. He felt really bad being so rude to her, but he couldn't believe that she could just ask him to move on from his sister. He would never give up hope. [/color]
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Post by Keira Halliwell on Oct 12, 2007 15:40:36 GMT -5
Keira stood up as well but she remained calm. The old Keira would have fired up and possibly reacted even worse than Derek did, but after everything that had happened, she would rarely do that anymore. She was aware that as Derek had yelled everyone else had probably heard. "Derek," she said calmly with the patience as if she were teaching a toddler what two plus two was. "Rachelle was my little sister. I was the one who had taken care of her when no one else could, because I wanted too...despite being busy with studies at the time. Do you think it was easy for me? Easy for any of us? Do you think you were the only one to suffer from it just because you're her twin? Being her twin doesn't mean you loved her a bit more than everyone else, or that none of the rest of us loved her."
She would have said more, but she had given him enough questions to answer as it was. To an outsider it might seem like easy, simple questions but she knew in his situation they were harder than someone else might think. She wasn't sure if he would even answer it, or prefer to cowardly bottle up and ignore her or shimmer out.
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Post by Natalie Halliwell-Turner on Oct 12, 2007 15:53:46 GMT -5
Derek you didn't have to do anything, you would just rather shut everyone out like you always do!" She said finally letting herself be heard. Everyone else had memories of Rachel, knew what she was like. Natalie barely remembered her, she didn't have one memory.... she was too young to remember her - she only knew what her mother and everyone else had told her. "Your not the only one that lost a sister... least you remember her."
Natalie knew her sister wasn't dead, she was was then she would know. It was hard to explain but she just had a feeling that she wasn't dead... Some bond between them. Aunt Piper always did say that a bond between sisters was one of the strongest ones there was.
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Post by Derek Halliwell-Turner on Oct 21, 2007 19:03:05 GMT -5
Derek was somewhat surprised at the reaction that he had gotten from Keira. He had expected her to flare up just like he had. But instead, she kept her cool. Something that he had always had trouble doing. He wanted to answer her questions, but he had to take a moment to think about them. He knew that if he just burst out the first things that came to his mind he wouldn't become any calmer and he needed to be, because in the state of anger that he was currently in, he would say stuff that he didn't really mean and it would just hurt everyone.
But before he could answer Keira, Natalie spurted off about how he at least had memories of Rachelle. He turned to her, feeling his temper flare once again. He tried his best to control it, because he hated when he lost control, but it was going to be hard to keep himself calm in this situation. "You think that I have a ton of memories of her, Natalie? I was five years old when she was taken. Honestly, how much do you remember from when you were five?" He asked. He knew that personally, one of the only things he remembered from that time was the night that she was kidnapped. He would never forget that. [/color]
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Post by Natalie Halliwell-Turner on Oct 23, 2007 11:35:54 GMT -5
"Even one memory of her would be something but I don't even have that." Some people would have said that not been able to remember would be better, ignorance was bliss right? but nope, it hurt Natalie not been able to remember her sister, knowing of her but not having one memory when everyone else in the family did.
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Post by Keira Halliwell on Oct 23, 2007 14:23:40 GMT -5
Keira sighed. She was much worse than Derek and Natalie than when she had been around their age, sometime around when Derek and Rachelle had been born. She could never hold back her tongue and ended up lashing out and hurting feelings, including her own, even though sometimes she didn't mean it. She stayed silent when Natalie interupted, she didn't want to interfere in that one. She wondered then if Kaelyn and Linda had ever argued over who had remembered thier father who had suffered the most ect.
Personally she thought that everyone had suffered badly at the loss of Rachelle, but maybe Derek had gotten the pain a little worse than everyone else. He was her twin after all. "There's nothing you can do about that, so why complain?" she pointed out. Well there was something- it would be easy for Keira to transfer a memory to her but it probably wouldn't be the same.
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Post by Derek Halliwell-Turner on Oct 27, 2007 18:16:31 GMT -5
Derek shook his head, keeping his eyes wide open staring towards the wooden floor of the attic. "You really think so?" He said, feeling the water begin to form in his eyes. Holding it back the best that he could, he continued. "How would you feel having the only memory of your twin sister be the night that she was kidnapped. Watching the demon steal her out of the same room that you are in, and not being able to do anything about it?" The restraint that he had had on holding his tears back began breaking slightly as one small droplet rolled down his cheek. "I think I would take not remembering over that." [/color]
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